Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas from a certain someone...

To every single person in the world that considers me a friend:

I'm sorry that I haven't been updating or been spending enough time with you guys. Recently I've been busy, as well as spending a lot of my time thinking.

This Christmas, lying on my bed, I realized that one of the most important things to me is to treat my friends right, and I realized, better than ever before that all you guys out there, wherever you may be, be you in America, the UK, Singapore, Australia - anywhere in the world right now - you guys mean the world to me.

I may not do it right all the time - I often come off as self centered and arrogant - but I've realised that I really mean well, even though sometimes I come across as a cold callous bastard. If that was the case, frankly speaking, I just didn't know what to do.

Alone in my thoughts I just knew in that moment that I wanted you all to know - even though I may not be immediately near to you, or available to meet up - that all of you mean a great deal to me and that I sincerely wish that you have a merry, merry Christmas, from the very bottom of my heart.

So sorry that I may not be able to be with you at the moment, but remember that I am just human, just like you. But I miss you so.

Merry Christmas, and happy new year, from the deepest crevices of this boy's heart.

Your faithful friend,
Kevin Chan


KJ said...

Hi Kevin,

Happy Boxing Day! Indeed, reading this piece forced me to cave in once again.

I actually spent one whole day rethinking what you wrote. I'm still on holiday. For me with not much of a social life, it was a period of silence, a chance for the voices in the head to resound again, free from the clutter and bustle of trying to mask things.

Of course, a social life is nothing to be scoffed at. After all, we aren't, by nature, really solitary 'creatures'.

But what we do need, at times too, is silence. Quiet, away from people, from the carnival that is our life. Fun and necessary, but the white also requires the black, the night the day, the noise requires the silence- time to reflect and think.

Contrary to what society would have us believe, we do need time alone to digest, absorb, and assimilate what we have ingested: all the words, ideas, sounds, furies and all that we have picked up from the realm outside our heads.

I guess that's why I am still regressing into silence. It's when I start communicating again, but it's kinda hard to talk again, to once again be providing a constant stream of inane banter so as not to sound or look weird...

Well,I'm still floating in my own world but I'm not exactly sure if i want to surface yet... However, I know I have to resurface sooner or later if I really want to focus on growing a business by getting people to work for me! Yes, that's my ultimate dream before I retire. One of my lecturers once told me, "A true entrepreneur’s business will be able to operate without their daily participation. Seek opportunities & profit from them, without working to death." That got me hooked into seeking a true entrepreneurial business model; i.e. hire other people / technology to earn the money for me. With this, I get to do what I like!

Darn, I just realized that I was still living in my fantasy world as I was typing the above about my dreams. I still can't think of an appropriate business model. Any ideas??

Sorry for a super long comment. Here's wishing you a wonderful, awesome, superb, blessed and altogether joyous 2009 (despite the economic downturn.) Sorry I remain pessimistic when it comes to the economic cycle.). May 2008, despite its ups and downs, remain a learning point and stepping stone to 2009, as God The Almighty leads all of us on.

To me, 2009 will be different. It would not be without its usual day-to-day struggles but we must remained focused upon His cause, His mission. What that means for my life in practical terms is manifold. I hope some of it will reveal itself soon. I am excited, but I also want to be aware of its costs.

God bless you, pal.

Warmest regards.

Stefanie said...

Merry Christmas and Happy new year :) take good care okie :) dont thinkkk too much :P x

Ern Sheong said...

heyzzz merry christmas to you bro!!

since you are doing a little soul searching and thinking i recommend you a book called "Mere Christianity" by CS Lewis. It's a logical kind of book, and as a KI inclined person I think you might enjoy it.

have fun and happy new year in advance!!!!

su said...

merry 25th of decemer. and a happy new year.